Dear Momby Annie Por | 3 months ago
This past Sunday was the first time that I celebrated Mother’s Day as a mom myself. I have always appreciated you for all the sacrifices that you’ve made for me my entire life and all the love that you have shown me, but I don’t think I fully understood just how much you’ve done for me (and still continue to do for me), until now.
I’m sorry for all the times that I made you worry when I stayed out late with my friends or when I would travel and not call you for days. I’m sorry for always brushing you off when you tell me to drive slower, bring a jacket in case I get cold at night, hound me about eating healthier, exercising more, not using my cell phone at night in the dark, not charging my phone by my head, not drinking ice water and eating cold foods, and etc. The list is endless. I feel like every time I see you, you’re worried about something for me. I’m sorry that I always thought it was as simple as me telling you “Don’t worry mom! Gosh!”
I get it now. I finally understand how you feel because I worry about Parker now and I’ll continue to worry about him even when he’s older because he will forever be my little boy—just as I will forever be your little girl.
Thank you mommy. Thank you for always being my number one supporter. Thank you for always listening to me, giving me advice, and guiding me to be a better person. Thank you for all the diapers you changed for me when I was a baby, all the times you held me in your arms to sleep, and all the love that you’ve shown me.
I know that raising me by yourself was really difficult for you, considering the majority of your entire family lived in another country. I can’t imagine how scared you must have felt. I get now why everything worried you. We didn’t have the means or the luxury for me to get hurt or mess up in any way. I didn’t understand it at the time, but I completely get it now. You’ve always shielded me from all your difficulties, but now that I’m a mom myself, I’m in awe of what you were able to accomplish.
These past four months have been the most tiring, yet most rewarding time in my entire life. I am so grateful that you have been by my side every step of the way– I couldn’t have done this without you.
I can’t promise you that I won’t say “Don’t worry mom!” again, but I’ll try my best to make you not worry about me. I’ll exercise more, drink less boba and cold beverages, drive slower/safer, not use my cellphone or laptop as much, eat breakfast, etc. Even still, I know you’ll worry about other things, but I know now that it just can’t be helped.
I just want you to know that I love you so much and am so grateful to have you for my mom. I hope that I can provide Parker as much love and patience as you have given to me and Jimmy. Happy Mother’s Day!
Your little girl,